We need a break. It’s over. It’s me, not you. I can commit no
longer, I need space, I’m tired. Let’s not get emotional, let’s enjoy
the memories we shared, fond moments we’ll never forget. So long bike.
Done. Kaput. Finito. The end of the cycling season comes to an abrupt
halt, no warning, just like that, you stop cycling. Mercy. One week
you’re loving every ride, no end in sight, not even winter will stop
you, and then bang, you’re sat inside on a lovely day, no motivation, no
guilt, beer in hand, telly on, belly out.
I’m not cycling, I’m not thinking of cycling, I’m not even cycle
shopping. I’m well and truly done! Whisper it quietly, I may even be
sick of cycling! The shock, the horror.
Every year the season end catches me by surprise. I never plan a
break, it just happens. Body and mind decide they can no longer
continue, enough they scream, we need a bloody break.
All or nothing
I’m pretty intense. When I set my mind to something, I adopt a
lazer-like focus, little distracts me. I’m all or nothing. So after
riding hard and often for nine months I’ve been very much looking
forward to the break, mind more than body.
Year to date I’ve ridden a couple of hundred miles short of last
year’s total and my ride time is a full 24 hours shorter. Yet I’ve never
ridden so often with 30 percent more activities than the previous year,
and double that of 2014. This despite adopting a three weeks on, one
week off schedule. Short and sharp has been my game, this being my first
year of
structured training.
Time for rest. Despite the abrupt end, the signs have been there for a
while. Intensity dipping, distance dropping, times up local hills
lengthening, fingers no longer avoiding the snacks at work, a cheeky
glass of wine here, there, everywhere.
The real end to my season was actually three weeks earlier, peaking
in a hill climb race, satisfied with my results, or at least my
performances, my inner chimp finally smiled before closing his eyes,
ready for his brief hibernation.
Of course there is no ‘season’. I’m an amateur, yet my year is marked
by high and low intensity. When you’re putting in hard efforts three
times a week for nine months, then it’s easy to see your cycling as a
regime. Such riding is not sustainable, something has to give.
Every passing year my break gets shorter and shorter. Gone are the
days when I’d not cycle at all for a few months. Now I’m down to about a
month and even then, I’m still riding, albeit with a focus on fun not
structure.
This year I’m thinking a couple of weeks off riding completely. No
fun rides, no commutes, nothing. Then a few weeks of unstructured riding
up to Christmas before returning to action in January. But I cannot
choose. My body and mind will know when it’s time to return. Until then,
I’m looking forward to some time off.
The joy of the off season
Ahhh. No riding. Normally this would send me into a panic but not
now, for this is a break well earned. I owe it to myself to rest. No
longer do I watch what I eat. Booze is back, after many months of
restricting myself I can now finally give in to that sweet, sweet smell
of alcohol. And chocolate. And fat. And idleness.
I can indulge in some of my favourite non-activities. Horizontal all
day, watching minor sports on the television, plenty of cups of tea and
coffee, little bits of chocolate here and there, more snacking, and much
more doing nothing. Lazing in bed when others are out on icy frozen
roads, electrolytes courtesy of my salt cured bacon sandwiches, no need
to worry about how many carbs I’m eating every hour, no need for padding
in the seat of my pyjamas.
Mentally, this is a time to switch off too. To not worry about how
I’ll fit three rides into my week, or how many layers of Lycra are
needed to beat the chill, or if I’ve eaten enough food to make sure I’ll
make it back home!
I can wear clothes without revealing my anatomy to the world, climb a
hill as slowly as I like, stay in bed, sheesh, I can even stay up past
my usual child-like bed time. Bliss.
Entropy and the need to be doing something
Bliss will inevitably turn to disquiet, to boredom, to frustration,
nay, even anger. No release, no movement, no joy. Stuck inside I’ll gasp
for fresh air, for adventure.
Commuting by tube rather than bike will quickly wear and turn from
novelty to hell, usually by the end of the first journey. The unedifying
smell of others, cramped and crushed together, cattle going to market –
at least they don’t have to repeat the journey on the return. People do
this every day? Wow.
Body rested, it begins to quiver with excess energy. Long standing
aches and pains are banished. I’m healed. Mentally too, I’ll be itching
to be back on the bike, to be free, to be challenged, to be at peace.
The anticipation will build and build, a child on Christmas eve, eager
to play with his new toys, patience thin.